Wednesday, March 6, 2019

Your Groove

On the iPod, “River” by: Bishop Briggs
About two months ago, I was in a different place than I am right now.  I felt like I was constantly yelling at my kids for just being kids. I was always tired. To be honest,  I was pretty much constantly annoyed with everyone in my life and in general was feeling pretty negative about myself. While becoming a mom I had somewhere along the lines forgotten how to be me. 
This might be way too much information but I think in general I’ve always had a pretty good self image. I grew up in a house where I feel like sexuality was promoted. It definitely wasn’t the hush hush thing that wasn’t discussed. I might not have been the skinniest girl in my upper teens and early 20s but I took a lot of pride in learning how to take care of business, if you know what I mean, and with that came a lot of confidence. For the record I’m way sexier in my head than I am in real life and that seems to be a chubby girl thing. 😂 But lately I just felt off... I was struggling to feel sexy. There are a lot of things about my marriage that aren’t perfect... shocking right, 😝 but sex has just never been one of them. So when I found myself struggling to be interested in that I knew something was up.  
 I started to realize that I had in fact lost a connection with my own body. And I had just given up in a lot of ways. For years now my body has turned into a vessel for someone else’s needs. From marriage to pregnancy to nursing to just constantly being pulled and pushed and hung on... 9 times out of 10 someone is fucking touching me. I had slowly built up this wall of separation from myself and it was now affecting everything in my life. 
So now that I knew what the issue was I had to really make a choice to change it. I headed back to dance class. At my first class back the instructor said “before we get started find your character, who are you going to be? Do it now...because if you wait it will be too late and it will be much harder to get out of your head.” Not only did those words help me get through the class but they have gone on to help me get back. Monday night at Pound class I found myself worrying less about hitting the right beats and instead the lyrics to the last song hit me so hard that tears started to roll down my cheeks.  The balance of life is a struggle for everyone but for those of us who are really in touch with our emotions the balance can feel stifling. A lot has happened in the last couple of months... the blogging, the dancing, the weight loss, the incredible friendships, and well I got my groove back. 
In celebration of this MoveStudio and I are inviting you to the studio for a free class of your choosing in the month of March! Simply follow this link and enter the promo code platefullofboys and go find your groove. 
Love,
Me
P.S. this song should be your new anthem


Saturday, March 2, 2019

ALIVE!

On the iPod, “Fire” by: Sara Bareilles


What makes you feel alive? I know, I know it’s sort of a hard question. I asked some of my closest friends recently and the answers weren’t all that surprising. What I did notice is that with the exception of one friend’s answer... it seems as if we are setting the things that truly set us on fire to the side as we work through the mundane of everyday life. 

So...why?

Personally, I feel like I’m constantly trying to give my kids every opportunity to figure out what sets them on fire and I know you are too! So why then are we so reluctant to pick us?

Last night at my hip hop heels class with Geena, I was able to do a move that I couldn’t do a week ago. Like seriously, 7 days ago I couldn’t do it...but now I can. It doesn’t really matter that there were new moves this week that I couldn’t do because you know what... I fucking nailed the one from last week!  I walked out of class ALIVE! 🔥 🔥 🔥!!! And when I’m in the midst of a therapy session with one of my favorite moms till 2am and I finally feel like a real person again or I’m writing a blog post that flys off my finger tips I feel ALIVE! Like so alive that I want you to feel ALIVE too. Maybe you feel content everyday or maybe you’re drowning in a house full of people but you still feel alone. I just want you to ask yourself how you could really choose you for a change.

Because you, my friend, are WORTH IT! I’m WORTH it! My kids and my husband and my family and my friends and my clients are worth it for me to feel like...I.   am.   WORTH IT!    And yours are too! 

Find your alive! Message me... come to a dance class...run a marathon, find a stage, get an uber and have another glass of wine, stay out too late, write a book, spill your guts to a good friend and maybe realize that you aren’t as alone as you thought you were...
Take a chance to feel ALIVE.

Love, me